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In just 9 days...
I will be flying home to Indiana for two weeks!
I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am to spend time with my friends, family & cousins, go back to my home church, and take ballet class at Southold again!
I have no idea what the results of this trip are going to be, but I am hopeful that it is going to be helpful, more than anything else.
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Okay, now I'll move on.
Can you believe we are almost a quarter way through 2013 already?!?
When I realized that, I had to stop and think about it for a moment. It didn't seem real. Time has really flown by, and I've been in Florida for pretty much all of it. It's been an adventure so far, and I'm glad I decided to do it, for several reasons...
{one}
I got away from the difficult Indiana winter.
Winters have always been very hard for me to deal with. I never could tolerate the gloominess & lack of sunshine very well. And there were, more often than not, several days when just walking from my house to my car was enough to make me cry sometimes...not kidding...because it was so cold! So obviously, winter is not my season...at least not up north...and up there, winter lasts a very, very, long time. I can't even say how much I've appreciated the sunshine and warmth that I've found here in Miami. I never took it for granted for one day. I loved being able to go outside and walk around the area wearing my sundresses in the middle of February. And the consistent sunshine was a HUGE enhancement for my mood!
{two}
I've met some great people...who are WORTH keeping in my life.
When I first got here, I think the most difficult part was that I didn't really know anyone, and I was having a very hard time meeting people and making friends. And I missed my close friends back home so terribly. I still do, and like I said before, I am super excited to see them! But slowly, after giving it some time, and allowing things to happen naturally, I began to form connections that turned into friendships that I definitely want to keep. There are some very lovely ladies in the area, and I've had good times with them! I've also met several girls in their 20s and I enjoy them greatly. And not only that, but I became very close very fast with Angie while working and learning to sew at the Design Lab {read about that HERE!!} and in the process, developed a new skill that I can't wait to continue pursuing!
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I was able to prove to myself that I was capable of something big.
Talk about a big move...from Indiana to Florida. That's quite a long way. I've never been one to take risks, and I've never been one to step out and try something that was WAY out of my comfort zone because I was too scared and I allowed my anxiety to get in the way all too often. Coming here and adjusting to a completely new environment, practically by myself {although not really...thank GOD for Bellinda's family!}, leaving my best friends behind, and having to start completely over...that was a MAJOR accomplishment for me! Absolutely hands down the hardest thing I've ever done! But I did it.
Even though sometimes I really don't know if I'm happy here or not, I am at least happy to say that coming here was a good idea, overall.
Even though I'm really not sure where I want to end up {it literally changes every day}, this was probably the best experience I could have had to learn more about life.
There are days when I swear up and down that I can handle everything, and everything in me is so sure that I'm happy here.
There are other days when missing life back home hits me so hard that I fall completely apart...and I experience a "what am I doing here?" phase.
In other words...I am the most indecisive person in the world :)) Ha!
But with God's help & guidance, along with the {{SINCERE}} support of friends who truly want the best for me, I will figure it all out.
And no matter what I do, I am confident that the ultimate outcome is going to be absolutely beautiful! Because it's all part God's beautiful orchestration!
you'll be reading about a wake-up call for me regarding a longtime struggle of mine, and how it has helped me to continue working to overcome it.
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