Wednesday, December 29, 2010

So alive!

I was amazed today. Completely amazed!
Lately all I have been able to talk or think about is one thing...ballet!
Very recently in my life I really struggled with what I wanted to do with my life. Granted, I know that perfectly normal for an person my age. So many people around me had no clue about what they wanted to do. But I knew. I was sure...and I wasn't doing it. And that was why before the semester even began I found myself crying for it, aching for it, and not knowing if I was going to be able to do it, at least not where I was now.
A very dear friend of mine listened to me through my tears that and said, "What makes you come alive?"  I knew the answer.
And after today, I definitely know the answer.
I took the most wonderful ballet class today. Now ballet has always made me very happy, especially recently with the classes I've been taking. But today, I truly realized for the first time how ALIVE I felt doing it! 
I know that I will never be successful at a professional ballet career, and I've known that and accepted that for awhile now...but I still have goals with this, and today made me about 10 times more excited about them than I already was!
Over the past few days I have been more motivated than I have probably ever! And NOW, I am experiencing a motivation that I never even thought existed...at least not in my world...I now know, without a shadow of a doubt exactly what I am meant to do...what God is calling me to. And I know the steps that I am going to take to get there! And I can't wait! 

I just can't wait!  

Thursday, December 23, 2010

It's amazing the way God works sometimes...
We have no idea how He is going to speak to us next or how He is going to get our attention.
After months of what seemed like utter silence, I am finally learning to hear His voice. I am finally learning to read His word and what it means for ME. 

Today I found Zephaniah 3:17-18.
It was a scripture that I had read in the past, but it wasn't until today that I fully grasped its meaning. And it wasn't until I read this particular translation that the words pierced my heart and caused much rejoicing!
Here is what The Message  has to say in Zeph. 3:17-18...

Your God is present among you
   a strong Warrior there to save you.
Happy to have you back, he'll calm you with his love 
   and delight you with his songs.
The accumulated sorrows of your exile 
   will dissipate.
I, your God, will get rid of them for you
   You've carried those burdens long enough.

Oh, how He loves us, indeed! How long it has taken me to recognize this truth!
I am changed! God now truly OWNS my heart! 
I AM my beloved's and HE IS MINE! My heart sings a new song to my Lord! What a perfect way to exit the past year and enter the new one!