What can I do for YOU??

While I was driving to campus this morning, I had the radio on (as always).  I had it set on my favorite Christian radio station, and this song that I hadn't heard in YEARS began playing.  It's called "Look What You've Done" by a group called Tree63.  This song came out when I was about 11 or 12, before I really had an understanding of my faith.  I always liked the song but I never really listened to the words.

Well, I had forgotten all about this song until today...and when it first started playing, it seemed like such a completely random choice to me! But then I listened...

The verses talk about what GOD has done...

"Look what you've done for me!"..."I haven't been the same, ever since the day I called your name"..."I'm free, at last I'm free! I owe you my life completely!"

But then the chorus goes on to say...

"What can I do for you, my Lord?"..."It's not a question of you what you can do for me, but what can I do for you, my Lord?"

As I said before, at first, I was surprised to hear kind of an "old" song playing on the radio.  But as I chose to listen to the words, it really convicted me. 

I've been sitting back waiting for the Lord to do SOMETHING...teach me something...show me something.  But what kind of action have I been taking for HIM?  Have I totally committed something in my life to bring Him glory?  I didn't even have to think about it.  My answer was a resounding NO.  

I have always heard people tell amazing God stories, saying, "Listen! This is what God has done for me!"  And while I was always happy for them, I would walk away feeling discouraged, thinking, When am I going to be able to tell a God story like that?  It has always made me very insecure in my faith.

But then I realized that I had never really FULLY committed my life to God in the first place.  And I know He's waiting on that commitment.  But that kind of commitment has always been so scary, and it's something I've always withdrawn from.

I have been thinking all day that I was "supposed" to hear that song this morning...and I say that very hesitantly because I'm still not sure what I believe about "pre-ordained" stuff yet...but I do believe that the thoughts I produced as a result were from the Lord.  I think He really was speaking to me, and letting me know, "Here is something you need to think about."  And I'm going to think about it!

My goal from now on is to continue doing the things that I love, but also asking God, "How can I glorify You with this?  Show me how You are going to use this in my life."  

Now, I know that it is one thing to SAY that I am going to do this, and another thing to LIVE it.  So those of you who are around me a lot, if you don't see me living this out, don't hesitate to remind me!  I think a gentle reminder out of love is a very good thing :)

So whether it is singing, dancing, or teaching...from now on, it's no longer mine.   

Hold me to that.