...and I am so unbelievably excited about it!!
Ready for this??
Drum roll, please... :))
I am writing a book!!
It might sound absolutely crazy, because at some point, most people have tried to write something in their lifetime, or at least they wanted to. But it never worked out for them...for whatever reason...
Maybe they actually started it, but then became discouraged with themselves and gave up. (Understandable!)
Maybe they started and then became unmotivated to finish. (Hey, it happens! I have no problem--anymore--admitting that I don't finish A LOT of projects because I lose the motivation to finish them. Just being honest.)
Maybe their lives just got busy and writing got put on the back burner for too long, so it just never happened.
It doesn't matter what the reason is, because I, myself, have used all of them before, too. My point is that even though the idea may sound a little crazy right now, I am really, genuinely excited about this!
Soooo...what will this book be about, you may ask??
Good question :))
I haven't come up with an official title yet...which is okay.
But it's going to be written specifically for people who have been affected by depression...whether that's someone who has suffered from this horrible MONSTER of a disease, or someone who has watched another person they love suffer through it.
I plan to address depression by going into everything that comes with it...
Examples: Anxiety & panic attacks, feeling unlovable, abandonment from friends & family, eating disorders...so much more.
...because I've been there, done that.
All of that.
In fact, I'm still doing that.
And that's going to be a point that will be EMPHASIZED...that my story is NOT OVER YET.
This is just going to be me sharing experiences that I so long to share and what I am learning from them.
This book will be full of anecdotes from my own personal experiences and also the experiences of other people I know who also deal with this illness on a regular basis (because, believe me, I know some people who have A LOT to offer!).
This book will also address depression from a Biblical standpoint...I still have a lot of thinking and praying to do about this. I am not quite sure how I'm going to fit it all together yet. But hey, nothing says that I need to have all of the answers RIGHT NOW :))
Finally, I am hoping that this book will reach two different audiences.
{first of all}
those who suffer from depression and don't know how to handle it or what to do. I want to help them not only have a better understanding of it, but also to realize that there is HOPE!! Because when we are at our lowest point, it is so easy to feel hopeLESS. And we don't have to!
My main point to get across: When we are so far down that we cannot even FUNCTION, when we are abandoned from all angles by people we thought we could trust, when we think we are facing the end and there is no way out, God shows Himself in the most incredible ways possible!
{secondly}
those who have watched people suffer from depression and don't know how to handle it or what to do. Because the fact is, if you haven't dealt with it yourself, you could never possibly understand it. I want to show these people that this illness is REAL...and those who suffer from it are those who need to be loved the most. Not abandoned. Which seems to be so easy for people to do...simply because they don't understand.
I truly believe that God has opened a door here.
He has called me out for this very purpose.
I think I know now (at least to some degree) what my struggles with depression/anxiety/anorexia, etc. have been for. I know that, because of this, God is allowing me to be used as His vessel to help other people who are struggling with the same things.
And through this process, I know that He will continue to work on ME as well.
When I talked about this idea for a book today, I found myself feeling a sense of enthusiasm that I don't think I've EVER felt before!
I'm so excited! And I can't wait to start!
I don't know how many people would read it, but if it could just reach one person, that would be MORE THAN ENOUGH...and nothing short of a MIRACLE from God!
Because, after all, He gets all the credit.
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