It seems really hard to believe that fall break has already arrived. I have to admit that I felt so much relief after my final class of the day ended. I definitely need these next few days to relax.
And of course the arrival of fall break means that the semester is already half over! It so weird! I look back at it and think, where did all of that time go??
I came into this semester very happy and ready to charge in. I came in very excited about the future and thrilled that I had a plan for after graduation! At this point, I am still happy with life, excited about the future, and thrilled that I have a plan. But over the past couple of weeks, I have really wanted the future to be RIGHT NOW! My classes have gotten extremely overwhelming, and normally I don't allow myself to switch into panic mode...but I've been very close lately. I'm having so much trouble keeping up with my very full work load, plus making time to practice my music, plus teaching dance and voice lessons, and pretty soon the musical will be starting!
I realize that it's natural for a college student in their senior year to feel overwhelmed...but that's not even what this is about. Like I said, I just want to start my life! I just want SOON to be TODAY! I don't want to be in school anymore. And if you read my previous blogs, you'll see that I've felt this way about being in school for awhile. Of course there is no point in complaining because I obviously have to stay here until I graduate...but it just seems so far away, and I am kind of afraid that I will REALLY begin panicking between now and then.
The only thing that I can't stand to think about is leaving my voice teacher. It's really hitting me that I have such limited time left with her before I have to work on finding a new teacher. And that's going to feel so strange! For four years, I've studied with this teacher and she has done so much for me, not just as a singer but as a person. I can't imagine continuing my studies without her.
So, I definitely have a lot of mixed feelings about the rest of this year. I guess I'm just going to need a lot of encouragement that I CAN get through the difficult work load.
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